Sometimes this blogging thing takes a back-burner as life around me races on. For a long time I would beat myself up over that, over the missed deadlines or goals I set for myself. I’ve been learning this Fall though that just as the leaves change, so do we; as God calls us through different seasons of life for a reason.
Losing Ellis shattered my world and the story I thought God was writing for us this Summer. The ‘shattered plan’ is something I thought I’d somehow be used to by now, yet once again it caught me off-guard. As hard as I tried to fight these new plans, God continued to gently push me down this unfamiliar path.
If you follow along on social media, you know we are currently expecting again. A blessing I’m still not even convinced is real. We are equally excited and nervous as we anxiously await April, and a whole new season in our life. I took a big chunk of this Summer off from blogging which in turn allowed me to process my emotions without feeling the weight of my own deadlines. (Because we all know, grief knows no timeline) Working through losing Ellis and the hopes we had of welcoming her into our arms and instead, transitioning my mind and opening my heart to the fact that come April we will have a new little someone to look after.
I always have the best intentions of keeping up with writing, but LIFE. If I would have written that sentence a few months ago, I would have seen it as an excuse. Yet, God used this Summer season to teach me that taking time off and allowing emotions to surface can be of far more value than keeping up with the social media or blogging expectations I’ve set for myself.
This song by Hillsong has spoken to me immensely through the last few months (hence the blog post title) God has brought us through some of the darkest seasons, and yet there is always a reason. We never see it when we’re in the midst, but eventually He brings things full circle and we’re able to see glimpses of His promises fulfilled in the seasons that follow.
I can see the promise
I can see the future
You’re the God of seasons
I’m just in the winter
If all I know of harvest
Is that it’s worth my patience
Then if You’re not done working
God I’m not done waiting
As much as I’d love to promise you all consistency, I am instead going to promise transparency moving forward. Life is busy, messy, complicated, and beautiful all in one and I promise to write about all of it; all while continuing to give myself the space and time I need along the way. To say that I am grateful for this blog and all of you would be an understatement. Thank you for your encouragement, and for continuing to follow along through all of life’s seasons. Stay tuned in the coming week for some Fall favorites and even a GIVEAWAY!